So far this year it's going well, but I hope things can get better this year. I didn't manage to buy a new computer last year and while it's good that got a tablet that I can browse the internet on and draw digitally but I would still like to buy a new computer since I won't be able to finish the Heavenly Kyuubi pilot comic.

I have no idea how long that will take, but I really hope Ibcan get it, because not only do I want to finish the comic, but I also want to get back to streaming again.

On a lesser news, I did update my Patreon by changing the currency for pledges/subscriptions from American dollars to euros and edited the description for each tier.

If you want to help me out being able to save up for a computer (in case I can't get the funds any other way), or help out with bills.

You can find my Patreon here: https://www.patreon.com/CyborgLucario

If nothing else, I hope you're all having a good day and see ya!

Hello there. It's now New Years Eve and time for reflection and let me say that 2022 has been a rough year for me as at the start of the year I had problems with priorities and as someone who's brain makes me focus more on work or taking care of myself, I don't always take the initiative to start conversations with friends, which may have caused issues that should have been avoided.

Later when spring started I began to work on the pilot comic for Heavenly Kyuubi and the scripting actually went well and motivation was great, but later I got to be part of a friendship test by an irl friend that for some reason went on longer than anticipated due to certain factors and took away time that we all could use for other things, like my comic and designing characters for another friend's own project.

I somehow went on despite my other friends telling me that I shouldn't go through something that just exhaust, takes time, and receiving little positive feedback in comparison to bashing and being told I wasted my time with my drawings until I finally told them that I quit.

Sure, it might have been due to a reactive action of someone I had to tell that they shouldn't feel bad since they still have respect for me even though I haven't hung around with them for a long time now.

But despite the respect I still couldn't keep the computer I was borrowing which I had until I could afford a new one of my own. 

And so, months went and I even started a few donation drives to buy a tablet to finally colour my drawings again. I also got to with the help of an administrator of the organisation that helps me out to get my life on tract with getting a stable economy and possibly a job, to sign up to get fundings to buy a new computer (and possibly a graphic tablet like a Wacom or Huion) which I would likely be getting around the 13th December.

Unfortunately... as the year is ending soon I never got it and have to try again next year, and I won't be able to finish the Heavenly Kyuubi comic until I have one.

It may be hard to please everyone and it's a lesson I seem to need to relearn a lot of times, but for those who still choose to be my friends and support me despite my flaws and I hope that next year will be better and that I will be able to make a difference.

Of course, there was also all the wordly problems going around that made it hard for everyone. Let's make the future better alright?

I know it's kind of late for an update journal, but it feels like I could talk about these now.

First off, I managed to buy a tablet two weeks ago on a Singles Day Sale, but when I got it, they sent me the wrong tablet meaning I had to call costumer service to return it and now I'm awaiting for it again.

I have also been raising the prices for my commissions again due to the economy in Sweden and how expensive food is getting, as well as expenses I really need to take care of.

You can see the new prices here (will make a new graphic sheet once I got the new computer): https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario/commissions

But in other news, the latest visit to the doctor went really well and according to him, all the papers and documents regarding my periods at work training shows without a doubt that while I'm not incompetent that I still have issues on getting started on things at work (which also happens at home sometimes).

I will hopefully be able to get a stable income soon, though I'm still well aware that having a job that works for me would give me an even more stable income, but hey, one step at a time (even if one of the steps took a lot of time).

Let's hope that will work out for me this time.

And December is fast approaching as well, so I hope the rest of November will work out for you all and until next time, see ya!

UPDATE: Forgot to mention yesterday, but I got The correct tablet yesterday afternoon, hours after writing the journal. So far I like it, look forward to coloured drawings soon!

Well, I'm trying out a new option for clients to commission me.

Also includes new prices to test the grounds a little, which I'm doing because of the economic state of our world (at least in Europe).

I haven't put any new prices on flat colours or colours with shading due to the fact I still haven't gotten a tablet (I'm waiting on Black Friday for that), but I will update those prices when it gets active.

https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario/commissions

I hope to make a new price sheet too since I don't know how many are reading journals.

I'm waiting for a sale to happen while I'm doing my absolute best in saving the money I have gotten to make sure I can get that tablet I want.

And drawing daily is going really well, I just hope that any other drawing can be finished digitally later on.

What else can I say... As I know, there won't be any Halloween party this year, therefor I won't be dressing up this year... Reminds me how I should go out and meet new people, I mean despite being shy and introverted, I'm not that much of those and can talk with people.

Another thing it reminds me of is how I haven't dressed up as much as Roy in years, and while I don't plan on abandoning him, I do plan to make a new improved head when I'm capable to and will be selling the old head.

For more info, see here: https://twitter.com/CyborgLucario/status/1584468972103405570?t=9NPMXkDm6bEPc3LxgOMQ0Q&s=19

I haven't made a journal this whole month as I didn't know what would happen this month, but I can say that while I was worried that the money I got so far from the WG donation drive will be going to taxes instead of the tablet I need, it turned out I read it wrong and I will be paying the taxes later, but I do wonder if I can afford the tablet.

You can still donate to the drive if you want to see me make digital art again. If you want to that is.

This week is also my last week at my work training location.

I have no idea if I will be at a different location or whatever else will happen. I really hope the next meeting I will be at will lead to somewhere good as I'd rather want a real job rather than more work training or whatever else they got for activities.

Moments like this makes me wish that I got a computer again and I could make money out of streaming (my main reason for streaming would still be to play more games).

But after the last week I will probably get some kind of long break which I could need.

I really hope October can make things better for me.

It's August and I'm still without a working computer, but the weight gain drive I'm running is going well, but I haven't reached the goal yet of this drive or gotten up to the €250 needed for the tablet I need to start drawing and colouring digitally again, but you can help that make it a possibilty if you want, plus you get to fatten up Cyborg-Lucario and his girlfriend, Roxane. X3

The current deadline is the seventh of August, this Sunday. Let's see how big they will be by the end of it. :3

Anything else? On a more personal level, I have been on meetings regarding work and I'm still unsure if they count as real work, but showing my artwork to them (not ALL of them) they did say that we can come up with how much I want to be at whatever workplace I would go to so I can focus more on drawings and writing.

I also don't think I have said it here, but I have gotten help with signing up for fundings to buy a new computer, but I will only know what's happening with that in October or December, you know, bureaucracy takes such a long time.

Other than that I don't know what's gonna happen this month, hopefully it will go well.

Hi, I would just like to remind people that my weight gain drive for Cyborg-Lucario and Roxane is still ongoing over at Twitter.

I do post the progress on other places like here.

And I may have posted the link to my Ko-fi page on each part, but I may have forgotten to say that to say that if you're gonna donate, tell me in the donation message for who should be gaining weight from each cup. Or if you buy an even number it you could make both gain weight from them. It all depends on whether you want a larger Lucario or a larger Cinderace.

Original tweets: https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1545457974969262080?t=3Sn0bwmqNkfqMbvVg42RyQ&s=19

https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1546888268263866371?t=g34oRTKONJSH2PSwXdzF_A&s=19

https://twitter.com/BigGnollQueen/status/1547299545993838592?t=94ok6tneGu6ERQChgJtxwg&s=19

Donation link here: https://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario

The deadline is July 31st, let's see how large this lovely couple will be.

I want to get straight to the point, after months of being part of a friend activity that stressed everyone, making me finally jump out of mt IRL friend group yesterday (July 3rd).

Despite everything, we still parted on good terms, but it also meant I had to hand back the computer I was borrowing, meaning I won't be able ro digitise my drawings, but I can still sketch and ink digitally, which means I can do those for commissions.

I also try to find a good way to raise money for a tablet that was recommended to me. I need to raise at least €200 for it, but I really need to think of a good way to do it, aside from commissions, Patreon and my merch stores.

I hope to announce something to later that could help help raising enough for that tablet, with getting a new computer coming later.

Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/CyborgLucario?ty=h

Ko-fi: http://ko-fi.com/cyborglucario

Gumroad: https://gumroad.com/jackalland

Redbubble: https://www.redbubble.com/people/Cyborg-Lucario/shop?asc=u

Teepublic: http://tee.pub/lic/0PMOekCYlSQ

I hope you will all have a good day my friends.

Hello everybody, Happy Pride month, make sure to keep yourselves safe as well as be respectful to each others.

Though the month is nearing it's end and there's a reason why I haven't made this journal earlier is due to something that started last month, something I have mentioned on Twitter and some friends, but let me say that in my irl friendgroup, the one in charge of our Discord server and the one who organize most of the things we're part of, but he felt like he still felt lonely and didn't get what he want (in general) and therefor put us all on tasks to see how good we are as friends, through methods that others I personally told to said was either very weird or came off as that friend is an assholem because I end up being in long calls where nothing is going forward, which is not helped by me freezing in places or doing something wrong.
Recently I we did at least came up with a deal where I didn't have to be in any calls and I can actually focus on my own projects, as long as I do something with the tasks.
He said that I'm free to suggest better benefitting deals, but the tricky part is to make sure it actually benefits both of us.

I do get why people would feel sorry for me, but I'm not the only one going through stuff.

It's gonna be Midsummer too, which hopefully means something fun. Maybe I'll be invited to the family for something fun?

Oh right, the Heavenly Kyuubi comic is starting to pick up again and I only got a few pages left and find a place to host it (again, it will be available for free) and I hope you will all like it once it's out.

And I may not have mentioned it earlier, but I got a Retrospring page where you're all free to ask me about any of my characters. https://retrospring.net/CyborgLucario

I hope what remains of June will be going well for me, and that eventually, the book I finished will finally get accepted by a publisher.

How are you all doing?

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